Twenty Eight

I just turned twenty eight last week. A Virgo, a virgin. ha-ha. I don’t often talk about me here. I don’t often go into personal information about my life like many other bloggers do. So, I will share twenty eight things / random facts about me. Some things you might be interested to know. : D

1. Unico Hijo
2. Sarah Geronimo fan, have seen series of concert at the Araneta Coliseum
3. Noodles, my comfort food
4. Still don't know how to ride a bike, but would love to learn
5. First time I saw porn, I was eight.
6. Have never tried smoking, but 2 glasses of wine, 1 shot of hard liquor or 2 bottles of beer to get buzzed
7. I hate liars, especially those who lies out of habit
8. Played with fire. Turning a real peso bill into ashes, is it a crime?
9. I once had six pack abs
10. One of my favorite dish is chicken liver and gizzard Adobo
11. Joined in a singing competition and won third place. We were only three contestants though.
12. A rusher, started listening to RX TMR when I was in high school. Chico and Del got chemistry. Crazy. Infectious. It would be hard to imagine weekday mornings without them.
13. I love eggs, especially hard boiled.
14. 200/200 vision
15. Hard to really get to know.  I tend to be closed off.
16. My sense of humor tends to be sarcastic in nature
17. I love chocolates.
18. If I am not making fun of you, I probably don't like you
19. Yes, I am a mama's boy and I’m proud of it
20. I know how to make leche flan
21. Had an ex, a blogger
22. took piano lessons when I was a kid, but I've forgotten almost everything
23. I always get mistaken as korean, chinese and a japanese
24. my front teeth were chipped off when someone punched the left side of my face
25. Filmed a sex tape twice
26. Full Blooded Ilonggo
27. I love going to the beach. I recently went to Puerto Princesa and got a chance to see the world-famous underground river
28. It has been almost ten years since i started blogging. created six blogs, those three are still updated including this blog.

Want some more ? Maybe next time. That's all for now! : )

keep on sharing

i don't know how and where to start.

i have never posted anything on here for the past couple of months or so. maybe i lost passion for writing, or maybe i just have no time to write and to think i have a lot to share to the world about my life, the people around me, my community and every little issue with social relevance.

to be honest, i almost forgot my account and my password. luckily after three attempts i was able to remember everything. at any rate, i just want to assure myself that i should keep sharing myself literally and figuratively =D  because i know somewhere, somehow, through this we can enlighten somebody's gloomy day or two and to encourage others to share their own story as well.

BTW, tomorrow is my birthday!

I LOVE MANILA

I haven't had much time to blog recently as my work/deadlines/gimmicks and twitter have taken over. Ha-ha. So I decided to make my own entry of Domjullian’s "Why I Love Manila" which is a good way to promote the city. Hays, inggitero talaga ako. Ha-ha

Here are my top 5 reasons why I love Manila :

Did you hear about ? Yeah, Tsismis (Gossip). It is a favorite pastime, as it's free of charge. I'm not guilty, but I'm used to it. LOL


Street Food also known as Hepa Lane. We may be poor but we never go hungry. When it comes to strange and unusual treats on the street, Manila boasts of a variety of exotic favorites like Balut (fertilized duck egg), Isaw ( grilled chicken/pork intestines), Kwek Kwek or Tukneneng (made of quail eggs and some orange batter).

Shopping in Manila is a way of life. Almost everywhere you go are stores, shops and boutiques from the small corner store to the giant malls that you can find. Shopping Centers like Divisoria, Tutuban Mall in Manila, Greenhill’s in San Juan…

Manila's nightlife is vibrant. It comes to life in the evening. Clubs and Karaoke / Videoke bars dotted everywhere in the city. The possibilities are endless, one just have to discover what Manila has to offer.

Best of all, there are so many happy people who know how to enjoy life to the fullest!

threesome

life is messy.

love is messier.

lust is...





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Favorite Movie Line

There are a number of lines or quotes in the movies we watched that made our eyes well up in tears or produced goose bumps. Other quotes are memorable and we often invoke them in conversations such as Godfather’s "Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer" and Don Vito's line "I'm going to make him an offer he can't refuse".

So what’s you most favorite line?

To start off, this line by William Wallace in Braveheart makes me strongly emotive.

“Fight and you may die. Run, and you'll live... at least a while. And dying in your beds, many years from now, would you be willin' to trade ALL the days, from this day to that, for one chance, just one chance, to come back here and tell our enemies that they may take our lives, but they'll never take... OUR FREEDOM!”

BROKEN

the sand castle's beauty 
alluring as it can be 
conquered by huge waves

JOKES

yeah, i think they really are half meant.

some jokes are usually aroused by facts. so, kunwari, ako, nakita kong magulo buhok ng friend ko, as in parang hindi nagsuklay, ang immediate reaction ko ay: "mahangin ba sa labas?"

so it's like, nakita mo kasi e, it poked a reaction out of you kasi it's really there. alam mo un?

kaya ung mga standup comic, like sa comedy bars, magaling sila dyan kasi very observant sila. pero un nga, kelangan tlga witty ka kasi the joke can either be funny kasi magaling delivery mo, or offensive kasi corny ka hahahaha

HUSH, BABY, HUSH

The day of reckoning has finally come,
As I pack my things up ready for a brewing war,
I leave now the lands I had toiled and the trees I let grow in the fields,
And let the sun shade its light on them, and grow no more.

I shirk not to an order that commanded me,
As I passed unto the throngs of red-badge men in line.
Clad in golden armors, kneeling in exhortation,
Though with hesitation and bewilderment,
The golden message I have that would change the course of my history.

And the flowers of May I used to fancy,
Let the passersby partake of its whiff,
While its scent carries me through.
Away to the light that shields my night,
And the darkness that overshadows it,

I have rested long enough in these fields,
Whilst I take cognizance of the beauty it brings to me,
Lest, my absence would frail their essence,
As I stand with great uncertainty and vacillation
I face the road less-traveled and notice my way home,
With tears in my eyes and joy in my heart,
“HUSH, BABY, HUSH…” was all that I had mumbled.

LABOR CODE

I would love to see our labor code amended, to provide a better balance between labor and capital and to foster growth for our small and medium businesses.

I believe it follows that if we have enough businesses and industries which are developed, then the market for our labor force will automatically determine what is right for our workers. Rather than the current inflationary policy of our government's labor laws.

Imagine: Due to surging oil prices minimum wages were increased. However, it should be noted that surging oil prices may be temporary only and may be due to speculation, which nevertheless leads to an abnormally high inflation for a certain period.

If the minimum wages were raised for that period, it would mean higher costs for our producers/manufacturers, retailers or our businesses in general, which would then mean higher costs of basic necessities for our national consumers and that even if oil prices or food prices were to significantly go down, it cannot be denied that labor costs would continue to stay at a higher rate based on higher prices.

Although, this would entail more spending power for our consumers, this would in fact prevent the overall purchasing power of our peso from increasing as the prices of basic necessities are barred from further decreasing due to the limit set by our minimum wage.

Now, it is equally troublesome to have fluctuating minimum wages which some companies would use to their own advantage, the better solution would be to provide for new minimum wages but to prevent the diminution of the old minimum wages which were already set in place.

This is not the only observation I have had with this law, however, there are still some other issues which I hope somebody else could point out to me = )

What do you guys think?

THE SCRIPT LIVE IN MANILA

a three-man Irish band.

is markedly different from the other artists.

Their lyrics play on a range of emotions, from plaintive and positively melancholic, 

to hopeful and optimistic. 

The singer's wonderful voice tugged at my heartstrings.

Hope to see / hear them again live. 

Photo taken here.

SECRETS

when you try to hide something deep inside, you cannot do it forever, you have to get it out of your chest one way or another.





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TILL DEATH DO US PART

Pwede kang magmahal kahit na ilang ulit.

Pero ang tunay na pagmamahal minsan lang.

Kaya piliin mong mabuti yung taong mamahalin mo...

...yung taong kaya kang samahan hanggan sa

kama...




...tayan



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ETERNAL

Time. It continues on for perpetuity without you. Its life is never ending just like my love for you. It carries on evermore and ever just like my hope for you. They say time is relative to all yet my love is always there no matter what.

My heart aches for you as if stabbed by a knife for without you in it I have no life. My soul withers and wails but when I think of you it shine fiercely and smiles.

With You in my heart I fly higher than height it for there is no measurement to show how much I love You. You are more than just my love; you are my heart, my body, my soul and everything.

You have all I am and so much more.

편지 혼자

Looked away, Locked the door
Left the lights off been here before
Had enough, gone too far
I know who can tend all the scars
Feel this way every night
But I know who can make it alright
And so I write...

I got no one to go to,
So if you're reading this, good for you
I know you've felt like you were all alone,
But deep inside you knew you'd pull through"
Said I can't, swear I will,
They don't care what I even feel
Head phones in, music on
Drown them out; I'll do what I want
Prove them wrong, my intent,
There no time to be conceited
And to that end...

For you I write this letter,
I know things get worse before they're better
You didn't let him break all your ambitions,
I know you showed them, made them all believers"
Many times I have felt
A losing hand is what I've been dealt
All the mess, all the hate
Had me thinking it was too late
Take a breath, recompose
One by one, my doubts I'll dispose
So here it goes...

I must apologize
For all the times my faith was compromised
For all the days I wasted in depression
I know you've finally found some peace of mind"

'Me.

HAPPY

Being alone is great, but being with someone is even better.

PETRI DISH

Often hear "everything happens for a reason" The older I get then more I lean towards dropping the second half of that sentence "everything happens."

The more I experience, the more I get the sense of the vastness of existence and the more it makes sense to me that the "great plan" is more like an unimaginably complex petri dish.

Everything is in motion and everything will eventually happen.

I have moved away from the idea that my life has some great plan and I honestly think that chance has a lot to do with life and our attitude to that chance shapes our lives far more than some divine plan.

Could it perhaps be ego that encourages us to think that we, as individuals, warrant a specific fate?

There are so many of us (and who knows how many other consciousnesses out there) that I keep coming back to "everything happens" and I have a wonderful opportunity to enjoy my part of everything.

STUPID

I don't like hearing people say this in a self-referential way because you're not.

Yes, It may be true that you did something less than intelligent, or made a few mistakes, or even failed once or twice.

Those things do not and never will make you a stupid person.

The truth is I know you're a wonderfully intelligent person and the whole world knows it, so please don't call yourself stupid.

Even as a joke.

SL

Wala ako sa mood. Hindi maganda ang pakiramdam ko ngayon, kaya tama na muna ang pagka-emo at tinatamad akong mag ingles. Ha-ha. Ibabaon ko muna sa lupa. Hongkorni. Dahil nawala ang drive ko mag trabaho ‘nung Martes kasi pinapasok ako kahit na on-leave ako. Bwisit lang! . Sana lang walang makabasa nito sa office, kundi lagot ako.

Kaya SL – Sex Leave Sick Leave ako kinabukasan. Kapag nag file ka ng SL for more than one day kailangan with Medical Certificate. Ganyan ang patakaran sa kumpanyang pinapasukan ko ‘ewan ko lang iba’. So, nagtungo ako ng hospital para magpa konsulta. Salamat sa Medical Card ng kumpanya dahil libre lahat wala akong gagastusin. Kapag may masama o may nararamdaman akong kakaiba na ‘di maganda, eh diretso ako agad sa  hospital o clinic na covered ng card para masulit ang benipisyo.

Xray Room kung saan nag sayang ng 8films sa akin =)

Ang diagnosis sa akin ni Doc ay Tension Headache, sabi ko kasi madalas sumakit ang ulo ko kapag concentrated akong nakaharap sa computer. Nireklamo ko na rin ang pananakit ng leeg ko ‘di ko kasi maigalaw ng maayos, Stiff neck kumbaga. Sabi nya Cervical Muscle Spasm at kailangan i-xray. Deretso ako sa Radiology… walong beses akong na-Xray ang tatlo dun eh pina-nganga ako. Kaya tatlong beses inulit, ibuka ko daw ng malaki. Ang pinag-tataka ko lang ang alam ko stiff neck na endorse na magpa- Xray.

Nagutom ako sa tagal ng proseso sa hospital lalo na pila sa Xray room kaya tsumibog muna ako ng lugaw w/egg at tokwa sa may kanto at kinain ko din ang dala kong biscocho na bigaw ni [insert blogger name here]. Muntikan ko pang mag 123 sa kinain ko. Nakalimutan ko magbayad. 

di masarap ang tokwa nila pramis.

Flashback. Naalala ko tuloy noong hayskul pa ako, bumibili ako ng kwik-kwik sa tapat ng school. Nakalimutan ko mag bayad bigla akong tumawid, namuntik na ako masagasaan ng dyip! Sabi ng tindera, hayan ambilis ng karma!. Makakalimutin talaga ako noon pag dating sa bayaran… tsk tsk. Pag pauwi ako from work nakakatulog ako sa bus at hindi na nakapagbayad ng pamasahe. Naiba na ang topic : D

In Short, ‘di ako papasok hanggang Friday I need some rest yan ang advised ni Doc.

A NEW BEGINNING

Here I sit, staring at my screen.

So white, so bright.

I am starting to believe I am manifesting a tan.

There are soooo many things I am going to accomplish this year.

This is my year.

When things start coming together, it may be everyone's year.

A couple of quotes keep popping into my head today:

"Forgiveness is the fragrance a violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it." -Mark Twain

"When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change." -Dr.Wayne Dyer

"Beyond the ideas of right-doing and wrong-doing there is a field. I'll meet you there." -Rumi

"Honor thy error as hidden intention." -Unknown

"Thinking is the talking of the soul to itself." -Plato

SCARS

From the words of Hannibal Lecter "our scars have the power to remind us that our past was real" And it does. No matter how much we want to erase all memory of our heartaches, our frustrations, it doesn’t matter. Because in the end, you will still look back and realize that it did happen and you can’t do anything about it.

How do we treat our wounds? We patch it up, put some medications and it heals and then leaves a scar. It’s just that. A scar, a reminder -- Fact is…you’ve gone through it. You are healed.

But why does it still hurt when we touch our scars?

YEAR 2011

Prayer for the First Day of the Year

O God, ever blessed and eternal! I thank You that today You have allowed me to begin a new year. Here in Your presence I make my resolutions for the days to come.


I resolve:

to be faithful and true to those who love me, and loyal to those who are my friends, so that I may never bring distress to their hearts;

to live in forgiveness and in kindness, that I may go about ever doing good;

to live in goodness and purity, that I may resist temptation and may be a strength to others who are tempted;

to live in sympathy and gentleness, that I may bring comfort to the sorrowing, and understanding to the perplexed;

to live in serenity and self-control, that no anger and no passion may disturb my own peace and the peace of others;

to live in full obedience to You and in Your perfect love, that in doing Your will I may find peace.

O God, our Father, grant me the strength to keep these resolutions all this year: through Jesus Christ our Lord.

Amen.


HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!


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DECEMBER 31

Prayer For the Last Day of the Year

O God, our Father, today we are looking back across the year that has passed from us.

There is so much for which we need forgiveness.

For the time we have wasted; for the opportunities we have neglected; for the stress we have given to the wrong things; for all the mistakes we have made; for the burdens we have caused to others.

There are so much for which we ought to give You thanks.

For health and for strength; for protection in the time of danger; for healing in the time of illness; for consolation in the day of sorrow; for daily light and daily encouragement.

Bless those for whom this has been a happy year, and make them give the thanks to You.

Bless those for whom this has been a sad year, and help them still to face the future with steady eyes.

And help us in the year that has come so to live that at the end of it we shall not only be one year older, but that we shall also be one year nearer You.

Amen.

DOORS

What do you do when you don't know what to do?

When you feel lost, or at a loss, what do you do?

How do you move forward? What do you turn to?

I have reached the stage in my life where I now trust the process.

If I don't know what to do, I of course react, eventually calm down and let my mind source out all my choices.

I explore being creative, and eventually the solution will come.

It really is an opportunity to get past the fear and move to another level.

I am reminded of the saying...in my house there are many rooms, some I have never opened yet.

Actually, I am writing this blog today because of my new header. Haha

HAPPY 26th!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Let's put CHRIST back in CHRISTMAS!

I’ve heard friends working abroad that they received memos on how to greet co-workers during the season. dapat daw Happy Holidays so that they can avoid any cry of discrimination from those who do not believe in Christ, and in God in general.

I just wonder, and what about us who do believe in Christ and in God? Aren’t we being discriminated upon for not letting us greet each other a cheerful and heartfelt Merry CHRISTMAS?

wala lang. napaisip lang.

So to everyone out there, pardon me if I choose not to be "politically correct" but this holiday is here because of Him. We are all here because of Him.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!

And may we all remember who's birthday it is that we are celebrating. Don’t forget to greet Him din!

BUSY WEEK updated

It's the time of the season for busy week.

Monday - seen 2 Movies : Skyline & My Amnesia Girl
Tuesday - attended the premiere of IKA-SAMPU with Andy; tickets courtesy by Aajao.
Wednesday - Arraignment for my SPI case
Thursday - on SL
Friday - had an appointment at DFA for passport renewal
Saturday - will take a rest, I hope. < Fail ! 
Sunday - last Team Huddle for Year 2010.

Following week, I'll be on a romantic Honeymoon. FTW!

SEX

Like air is to living

sex is to celebrating life

healthy

lovely

and down right excellent body mind and soul therapy

may you all have many years of joyfilled beautiful and toe curling sexual healing

peace


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Massacre in Maguindanao

It was so unfortunate that it had to happen.

I cannot contribute anything but prayers for the people who died.

May all the souls of those who departed rest in peace and may justice be given for such worthless mass murder.


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FORGIVENESS

"As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons."

-The Desiderata by Max Ehrmann

SHIT

Some music sounds like SHIT, things can look like SHIT, and there are times when you feel like SHIT.

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A TIME TO GIVE BACK

"'It is more blessed to give than to receive.'"

Most of us have a picture in our heads of the ideal Christmas. In that picture, the house is beautifully decorated, artistically wrapped gifts are piled under a festive Christmas tree.

At this time of year, when our hearts grow a few sizes and our wallets are already open to buy gifts, why not give something extra and share our blessings to the less fortunate.

Andy has come up with a great idea "A Time To Give Back" project this December.

I am joining and counting myself in on this project and can't wait to get this started!
I believe I can make an input and change someone's life for the better.

"Now it’s time to give back." - PASS it on and JOIN with us! : )

NEGATIVE

Negativity is best defeated by ignoring it in advance.

Never try to cure the negativity in any one since it has  immediate power and ability to hurt you unless you are highly attentive and spiritually powerful.

Q&A - 001 : FLIRTING / FRIENDLY

What is the difference between FLIRTING & just being FRIENDLY ?

I would say intention is the difference. Apparently nice people get mistaken as flirts most of the time. But someone’s inability to judge character should not be held against a nice person.

If you have no intention of getting them in bed, then it's just being nice. haha

DÉJÀ VU

Is it instant clairvoyance? Is it a memory relived from a past life? Is it an instance lived out at the same time by aspects of yourself in paralleled dimensions? Or is it just too much coffee and not enough sleep?

What do you think it is? I think it's too much coffee.

Actually, Déjà vu could be meeting up with yourself in the future. In some dimension it may happen and then we “physically” catch up with it in third dimensional time.

or

It could be parallel lives living simultaneously and we “bump” into our other selves...in the movie” What the bleep do we know” they discuss the prospect of many different “lives and choices” being lived out at the same time in several dimensions and one day all of our “lives” meet up at the same time.

I have Déjà vu moments especially related to my dreams. Sometimes I have a vivid dream and it feels like it’s so real. Then later that week or sometimes the same day-what I dreamt about comes to pass.

The weird thing is that the dreams are never fantastical. It could be something as simple as dreaming about receiving a letter or talking to a friend on the phone. I also have this feeling when I meet people I connect with-that I have known them my entire life.

Payo Para sa Kaibigang Nag-aaral ng Abogasya

Don't push yourself too much.

If you think you have already exhausted all your efforts and they proved futile than you ever expected, then I think you should calculate first your expectations vis-a-vis your performance.

Sometimes our thoughts betray us. More often than not, we fall prey to it especially when we allow ourselves to set our goals more than we could possibly achieve.

Of course it's never wrong to strive for the best with all our might, but it's wrong to ask too much from ourselves in ways that are even beyond our capacity.

We are all unique; we have our own failings and successes, strengths and weaknesses, and if you think you are not performing the way you want it to, don't fret out too much, don't fault yourself, because law students, great and small, suffer the same setbacks once, twice, many times.

Take each failure as a lesson for the next stride, and most importantly, start from the bottom and work your way up, one at a time.

But it doesn't mean that because you feel you're not good enough every time you get out of your school after the day's harsh, you'll never amount to anything. I bet it won't go as far as that considering that, as you said, you think your performing well enough relatively.

Law school is not only about passing the bar, or feeling extraordinarily bright. It's also about life and the most murdered concept: truth.

Enjoy life, enjoy law school!

KISS

The kiss that starts the whole mood is crucial to me.

As a man I desire a passionate kiss that can easliy arouse my sexual craving, I believe it is the gateway of emotions.

A good kiss can release the tension and stressors of life and engage in the moment of hot intimate sex with your partner.

The kiss says I want you, take me, seduce me, I am yours.

How we respond to the kiss is equally important of what we feel towards our lover.

A good kiss will leave you begging for more...

STARRY STARRY NIGHT (VINCENT)

I love Van Gogh's later works, they were vibrant and full of colour, his unique style appeals to my senses and they always call to me, as I wonder what he was feeling at the time he painted. He was brilliant yet so sad.

Starry Starry Night ~ Don Mclean 

A song worthy of pulling out and listening to once in awhile. It reflects the intense passion of the painter.

Starry, starry night.

Paint your palette blue and grey,

Look out on a summer's day,

With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.

Shadows on the hills,

Sketch the trees and the daffodils,

Catch the breeze and the winter chills,

In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,

How you suffered for your sanity,

How you tried to set them free.

They would not listen, they did not know how.

Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.

Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,

Swirling clouds in violet haze,

Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.

Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,

Weathered faces lined in pain,

Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,

How you suffered for your sanity,

How you tried to set them free.

They would not listen, they did not know how.

Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,

But still your love was true.

And when no hope was left in sight

On that starry, starry night,

You took your life, as lovers often do.

But I could have told you, Vincent,

This world was never meant for one

As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.

Portraits hung in empty halls,

frameless head on nameless walls,

With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.

Like the strangers that you've met,

The ragged men in the ragged clothes,

The silver thorn of bloody rose,

Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,

How you suffered for your sanity,

How you tried to set them free.

They would not listen, they're not listening still.

Perhaps they never will

SINCERITY

A man can never hope to be more than he is if he is not first honest about what he isn’t.

Don Williams, Jr



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SLEEPING NAKED

me. sleeping naked. | do you sleep naked?

I was lying in bed sleeping naked and I felt someone standing behind me.

I just stayed still.

She came up and almost cuddled against my back. 

I couldn’t move.

She said “shhhhhhhhh”.

I could hear and feel her breathing on me. 

It was a raspy almost animal-like sound of breathing. 

I couldn’t see her because I couldn’t open my eyes yet I knew that she had long dark hair and claw-like nails. Her face is cloaked in shadows.

She placed her hand in mine and continued to lay on top of me and it didn’t feel good at all. It felt like she was displaying control of me. I tried to raise my hand to shoo her away but I couldn’t move. I tried to yell at her but I couldn’t speak.

This whole thing felt malicious in some way.

Finally I jolted myself up out of sleep and the shock of waking so abruptly left me feeling gaga and suffering from headache.

This not the first time I’ve encountered in a dream.

McDonald's - Love ko 'to

What comes to your mind when I say McDonald's?

INCEPTION

I'd started to learn how to realize I was dreaming several years ago to help when I had nightmares.

In my dreams when they were scary I started realizing it was a dream enough to stand and fight against whatever was scaring me.

Most of the time it was invisible entities but I could feel their presence and even as if the air where thicker or had an actual physicalness I could feel, touch and push against, etc.

After awhile I had less nightmares - it was only recently that I started realizing I had control durring any dream and I started to 'play' almost like in the Matrix.

I would fall asleep but still be aware. I suppose this is what they refer to as lucid dreaming. Anyway, once I was 'in' the dream state and realized it. It was almost as if I 'woke-up' and started running with it.

Wherever my dream - world popped me into...I don't have control over what I dream yet but can control it once I'm there and 'know' it.

It's a trip. I did feel a bit scared in my last dream because it was as if a real energy was in my dream and trying to communicate with me. It tried to scare me away but I kept moving toward it because I knew I was dreaming.

Then it appeared to me as a lady - and I thought, hmm. this could be fun and went with it as if I knew the person and was going to flirt but when I got closer and touched her I felt this crazy burning sensation in the pit of my stomach and felt really sick I woke up still kind of feeling that.

It was weird because I didn't get scared right away but I did feel like whatever had happened wasn't just all a dream but that something more 'real' had taken place through the dream.

I also have such vivid dreams, dreams that pick up from previous dreams or have 'familiar' aspects from past dreams as if it were another consistent reality and many times I've actually remembered dreams as if they were real memories - then had to step back and go - wait, that wasn't real - that was just one of the dreams I've had. It's weird.

And I have had times where my dreams do feel so real at the time my mind confuses them and I have to figure out - try to 'wake up' and see if it's a dream or not. But I often try to wake up in my dream and when I wake up - it's me waking up in the dream. So that's really bizarre. Because it feels the same as when I'm really trying to wake up from a dream in real life when I finally wake up. It reminds me of looking in two mirrors facing eachother where there's copies of the same scene over and over until you can't see them anymore. It's dreams within dreams.

I am so incredibly fascinated with dreams and what they are really about because of how vivid and real my dreams have always been.

It's hard to believe it's really just all in my head.

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