DEAR AMR,

I know, I know how much life sucks right now.

Don’t overthink it. If it seems wrong, runaway. Your gut is usually right.
Except when it comes to sweets. Maybe resist some of those.

Promise to treasure your time.  Don’t fall in love with potential.

Don’t get too attached. They always leave eventually.
Don't force someone to make time for you. If they really want to, they will.
Don't waste your time with someone who only wants you around when it's convenient for them.

Know your self-worth, and move on if you must.

Remember that just because you want it, doesn’t mean it deserves to have you.
Be patient, but don’t procrastinate. Be hopeful, but not naive.
When it’s right, you’ll know. You don’t have to force it.

You are wonderful, strong, loved, smart and special. Always remember that.

I know things get tough, and I know you’re capable of so many great things.
I just hope you took the leap to get there.
I hope you still love yourself.
But most importantly, I hope you’re happy.

I know it sounds cliche. I just thought I would remind you.

Love,
AMR

keep on sharing

i don't know how and where to start.

i have never posted anything on here for the past couple of months or so. maybe i lost passion for writing, or maybe i just have no time to write and to think i have a lot to share to the world about my life, the people around me, my community and every little issue with social relevance.

to be honest, i almost forgot my account and my password. luckily after three attempts i was able to remember everything. at any rate, i just want to assure myself that i should keep sharing myself literally and figuratively =D  because i know somewhere, somehow, through this we can enlighten somebody's gloomy day or two and to encourage others to share their own story as well.

BTW, tomorrow is my birthday!

This World Is Full of Trouble Makers

People are generally mean and egotistical. They have very little concern about other people’s worries. People tend get happy over other people’s misfortune simply because they have become too hopeless themselves. Thinking about other people’s problems is their sole objective.

In other words we live by making others unhappy. This is the basic problem with the society. There is so much greed and corruption and an honest man has to struggle. People are vicious and they think themselves to be over clever. Being over clever is just a statement that they are obsessed with.

Where I live people tend to copy each other and do stupid things that they belief are quiet amusing. Ridiculing others is a part of their life. Nothing good can ever come out of this baseless culture. That has strange norms and traditions.

It’s a man eat a man world. In order to succeed you need to step on the throats of other men and reach your destination. Kindness is little seen or heard.

People have a tendency to hurt others. In fact they make every effort to humiliate other fellow human beings. I mean what’s the point in bothering another person? Grow up, purposeless trouble makers.

It’s time you need to change things. People are getting aware of the fact that bullying won’t work. Even messing up with other people’s life won’t work.

Someday you have to pay back for your evil deeds and that payment can be heavy on your budget.

BABY STEPS

Certain events in the life of a friend and Nyl's latest blogpost -- have forced me to re-think the relationship I have with my father. My Dad and I are never close, not due to neglect or abuse or a poor upbringing.
On the contrary, my formative years and childhood was spent in relative comfort with much love and support from both of my parents.

However, as I grew up and the issues of depression and anti-social behavior began to manifest themselves in me, I started to isolate myself more and more from my family.

What didn't help was how different my Dad and I are from each other. He is much more like my brother-like sisters. He is very much a blue collar guy, likes to have fun, drink, smoke and most things I was not. I always felt like he was disappointed in me, even though he never said so and much of it was probably in my own head. It is always awkward for us to be alone together, never really saying anything to each other, just sitting in silence. We hardly ever talk about anything when we do manage, and then it's only small talk like the weather and the local sports team.

Realizing that people that you never really connected to could be gone in an instant, leaving you with no opportunity to ever fix things, prodded me to see if I could mend the awkward relationship with my Dad.

It is never too late though.

So I got up the courage, picked up the phone and called him tonight. I knew that nothing would be completely fixed with one phone call, and I didn't even intend to have a deep heart to heart anyway. I just called with the intention of saying Hi and seeing how he was doing. I figured that if I can start doing that more, the ice could be broken and subsequent conversations would follow.

I kept it light, but the important point was that I called. We talked for about 15 minutes and he did seem genuinely surprise yet pleased that I called talk to him and not just my Mom which I what usually happens.

I got over the hump, picked up the phone and started my small baby steps in that area.

I really want this to bear fruit, but I know that it will be slow going, mainly because of my own hang ups about opening up to people, even with my family.

Wish

I don't wish.

Wishing tends to be empty and void of action.

People say, "I wish I had a better job." but that person rarely does something to manifest the job.

Wishing is dangerously seductive because many think they are doing something like goal setting by wishing.

Intending is much more proactive than wishing.

So, I intend.





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Breakaway

"It's never too late to start life over again and make the change."

Coffin Dream

I Think. Because of my previous post. I had weird dreams last night. 

There was a black box made of wood, around 4x4 meters, being lifted by men into my grandfather's house.

I recognized the box as the stage that was used for the play in which I played as a deep penetration agent/boxer who was caught and tortured by NPA comrades.

The box transformed into a coffin. My nieces and nephews began to gather around it.

Seeing their innocent faces, I felt my throat tightened.

Then I gasped for breath as I saw myself lying in the the coffin.

I woke up sobbing.

IMAGINE

The Crusades left millions of Muslims and Christians butchered. The Catholic Inquisition is estimated to have burned at the stake 9 million so called "heretics". This is even worse than Hitler's 6 million Holocaust victim. The Catholics and Protestants are still at each other's throats in Northern island. Add to this, the Muslim suicide bombers and their victims. The 9/11 twin tower incident would not have happened if not for religion.

On many occassions, in the annals of human history, religion has transformed otherwise normal human beings into mad men, killing for the sake of his God. Added to all these is the well-reported scandals involving priests committing Pedophilia and the systematic effort of the church hierarchy to cover up the said crimes. 

Organized religion has failed humanity. The great cathedrals of Europe have now become mere tourist spots because faithfuls don't go to church anymore. Man has become secular rather than spiritual. 

The latter half of the 20th century had seen many of the greatest minds turn away from religion. When it comes to God, this past 100 years or so, many people and some of the brightest minds are rejecting God than any other period in church history. Sir Isaac Newton declared that everything he observed was the work of God. Yet less than 300 years after Newton's death the top minds in the world are wondering if there is even a place for God in a self-contained universe.

We now know so much more than we used to. Man's knowledge and his mastery of the natural world made God unneccessary.

Is mankind better off without religion?






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Let Us Celebrate!

I would like to celebrate life itself. Not only my life but life itself.  

Everyday should be a celebration of your Life. 

As a celebration itself is already manifestation of happiness and reaching one's satisfaction you could celebrate anything.

It is so wonderful moment to moment.


It's beauty is beyond words.


It's diversity is amazing.

The air we breathe,  the water we drink, the earth we walk on, the love we have in our hearts.

And this day is another opportunity to be a light in my own and someone else's life.

This day is another opportunity to serve in whatever large or small way contributes to make a difference.

I celebrate this day ... and every day that I get to be me here now.

Three Words.

Tired.

Anxious.

Content.

Take a Moment to Pause.

Pick 3 Words To Describe How You Feel Right Now

Half Orange.

Sometimes I find just the right words that others have written and they help me along through my journey and my difficulties.  

I found them here in Blogosphere.

Meaningful relationships with others gives me the most satisfaction;

My most rewarding experiences come through sharing either in presence, or in writing, and connecting with the thoughts, ideas, emotions, essence, and presence of another.

I always feel a keen sense of accomplishment when my writing has taken me to a place that I needed to go and did not know it.

I love discovery and not just through my words.

Sometimes I feel the words of others are traveling towards me, seeking me as their target, as if my need for the right words, the right ideas, the right thought to take me to my next level of existence and knowing is calling out to them to find me.

Well, here's a little bit of a dilemma that I have come across and wonder about.

If we are attracting into our lives what we need, then other are attracting us into their lives because of what they need.

I am always unsure of what my right action is when the relationship is turbulent, or I am not happy, or they are not happy.

It seems if both are not willing to “evolve", then we have to go our separate ways.

It is complicated and probably would take an entire book.

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Well, not taking life seriously has it's positives and negatives.

Life is about living and having fun. Cut them a break!

 

2012

Enter 2012 in Google and you get about 195,000,000 results. I agree, speculation and debate will continue to heat up as the date arrives.

Humanity has this recurring fascination with predicting the end of the world or huge changes - it has happened a number of times before.

We all remember the big Millennium scare.

Now with the Swine Flu many are getting into a tremendous panic about that.

It doesn't mean, though, that there won't be a real huge change this time, of course.

Like that saying,

“Just cause I'm paranoid, doesn't mean they aren't out to get me”.

I think that something will happen in 2012 but it will not be as noticeable as people believe.

2012 will come and go without those ancient prophecies seeming to have been fulfilled.

The seeds of a new world will be sewn in or near 2012 but it will take humanity a good long while to realize the full potential of said seeds.

So, what do you all think? How would you respond?

Religion.

What's the most positive thing that religion offer?

All paths lead to the same God, but all paths can lead away as well.

Religion is as you like it and it's entirely your choice.

Essentially, if you choose a religion to guide you to God, be prepared for that meeting to occur outside the church.

This is called the church of the mind and you can go there anytime you choose.


I go there everyday.



 

Age is just a number.

"The body is at its best between the ages of 30 and 35; the mind at its best about the age of 49."  - Aristotle

How old do you feel?

Do you think you act older or younger than your age?

I act ages and ages old.
 

I act like a King with no country to take care of. 

I just act like I need to, and sometimes like I ought not.

Depends on when where and what my state of mind is.

I don't really know what people at certain ages are supposed to act like, from what I think I understand, then at my age I don't act it.

But I am aware that i am growing older.

Who determines what is the right or wrong way to 'act' as you get older in 'age'!?

As a person who believes we have a soul I don't know how old i really am anyway. I do act my age in some ways, because I groan and limp a lot more. Peace

Live and appreciate every moment - live a youthful life as age is just a number :)

Give Peace A Chance.

What gets in the way of peace?

Greed. Placing blame.

The attachment to and the belief that one's point of view is the only one that should exist.

Whether in world politics, family structures, neighbors, it is all the same.

We tend to think our view of a situation, which is always skewed by ego and environment, is the only correct "answer", and we tend to need answers that suit our ego much more than we are willing to ask the right questions.

We love to place blame but how many of us look within for understanding and then act as examples.

But we sure do like the sounds of our own voices.




'xs ... back to work' and will take my one hour break : )

Enough.

For me, there is never enough time.
There are so many things I'd like to do with my life that sometimes, it's difficult to know where to start.
Everyone around me is constantly telling me to relax a little, take it easy--you don't have to work so hard.
But to be honest, I'm happiest when I'm accomplishing something.

I want to make a positive difference in the lives of the people I've known,

• know and will know,
• to find happiness in the things that are normally taken for granted,
• improve and do well in all the things that I do,
• to change someone's life for the better,
• to forgive the people that hurt me,
• to tell the people I love and care about how I feel and how much they mean to me,
• to keep all my promises,
• to use all my knowledge and personal attributes to help others,
• to find a way to help make someone else's wishes come true,
• to be successful and financially independent enough to be able to treat my parents to a cruise around the world,
• to save someone's life,
• to learn to say sorry,
• to write and sing my own songs and record it onto a CD : ) ,
• to live in the moment,
• and ultimately, a life with no regrets.

Enough will never be enough, but I'll try my hardest to get there.

PORN OR NO PORN

First time I saw porn, I was eight.

I saw naked people and was like, 'what was that?

It was exciting, And then it's also a lot of curiosity.

Do you think pornography can be Tastefully done?

That's always a question that comes up.

I don't think porn can be done tastefully.

In my opinion, promiscuity does degrade the participants involved.

There is no other attachment, no real kindness just gratification of the base human need.

A lot of people would disagree and see all forms of sexuality as empowering for women.

But I think a lot of the these we see today is seen mainly through a Patriarchal sense.

As with most areas in society, mens way is considered the best way.

Being aggressive, being the hunter, taking what you want is the looked upon as cool and sexy.

My opinion -- It's that mentality that has put us in the situations we find ourselves.

Porn is an extension of that. The man is usually the aggressor, and the woman as prey. Not only in porn but in many different aspects of media.

I am not afraid to admit that I watch porn.
Most of the stuff is absurd though.Most of it is boring, And don't really watch it as much now...

Animals.

What have you learned from other animals?

It is often easy to think of things we've learned from other people, but what about lessons from other creatures?

Is there a particular animal that's taught you a lesson, be it a pet or an entire species?

Animals are like people.

They can argue with each other, and they can work together.

I like to watch the ways of different animals, and I noticed that even though they are all so different, they can get along.

I've seen many dogs and cats stay near each other peacefully, and rabbits seem to be fine with them too if they're not feeling threatened.

It could be just the nature of certain animals or the way they're brought up that makes them the way they are, but human beings are just the same.

We learn from the environment we live in and the way each person acts is different. No matter how we look physically, everyone is unique and beautiful.

The thoughts we have and the actions we take makes us who we are.

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Guides and Angels.

I do believe in Angels or Guides. Although I think many of us become stuck in the words we use to express that feeling of being guided.

Whether you believe in intuition, prophetic dreams, and many other senses of awareness, I believe it is all guided for our benefit. Some of us can experience the sensation of a scent and feel moved to do something specific - a scent can be that of a departed loved one and it moves us to look somewhere for an item we thought had been misplaced and there it is. Some of us feel a touch on our skin and are instantly brought back to a moment where we remember a bit of information that is necessary. And some people see angels.

Personally, I have had more than several occurrences of being guided by something other than my own consciousness. I choose to label it as little as possible since I believe strongly that while I love words and language, I do think that we tend to box ourselves into specific belief systems based on words, on labels and judgments and that what we need to do is feel more and sometimes think less. Otherwise, we run the risk of forgetting that we are here - again, in my opinion - to experience human life and all that it offers us. But that does not mean that we should be disconnected from whatever our source is, and the source often gets lost in the words we use to attempt to explain it.

One can not deny that we are connected to each other and that alone, for me, eliminates the illusion that left to our conscious minds, we can navigate the pathways of our lives on our own.

I do believe that we are our thoughts, however, I do not believe that we are even close to understanding how those thoughts appear. There are too many documented stories of people doing extraordinary things based on a hunch or a physical feeling that came over them suddenly to believe that some sort of wisdom other than our conscious selves is at place in our worlds.

And we, each of us, are someone else angel or guide in ways that perhaps we do not see. We meet, we connect in ways that might be unexplainable, we have different versions of a mutual experience, and then we move on -- guiding each others lives to a better place hopefully. And then, of course, there are experiences such as those I've had where the room is suddenly occupied by something larger than ourselves, something that consumes the air, something that lets us know in that moment that we are not alone, and that everything is going to be okay.

Prayer.

Father God,
help me to stay strong through tough times. I know with you on my side I can overcome even if things get difficult. Even if it seems there is no way, I know you will make a way. I am determined to be willing and obedient to all you called me to do,
in Jesus' name.